Monday, April 25th 2016
I felt kind of different all day, almost like I had a cold coming or so. Deacon and I spent the whole day taking it easy, taking naps, cuddling and reading stories. I had tried to make most our days about us for the last couple weeks because I knew how quick things would change!
So for FHE I planned a little picnic dinner on the floor while we watched the minion movie! Another Deacon date with mommy and Daddy.
During the movie- around 7 pm, I noticed some pink when I wiped. So I thought huh, maybe my mucus plug! But I really didn't think it would happen anytime soon, because I've heard it doesn't always mean you'll go into labor.
During the movie- around 7 pm, I noticed some pink when I wiped. So I thought huh, maybe my mucus plug! But I really didn't think it would happen anytime soon, because I've heard it doesn't always mean you'll go into labor.
Then as the night progressed I started noticing more blood and each time it got darker. I told Brett once the movie was over we should run to Walmart for a car seat headrest- just in case!!
Note- I obviously didn't think I was gonna come until my due date because I still hadn't figured out our car seat :)
We got home and there was more blood so I text my midwife.
"I don't know if it's anything to get excited about but I think I lost my mucus plug"
She asked me about the color and then told me it's a good sign that the cervix is thinning, to call her if I had any contractions and to try to rest!
It didn't sound like it would happen tonight so we went to bed. At 3 am I woke up with contractions, they were keeping me up for a while so I started timing them and they were five minutes apart. In fact I had 3 contractions that were 5 minutes apart and then they went to 3 minutes apart, then 1 minute apart. They were bearable, I just breathed through them while my boys slept right next to me :)
Once they were 1 minute apart I woke up Brett. That was also one of the rules- if you had contractions for an hour at night to call the midwife.
So I asked Brett if we should call, he started timing contractions for me and they were 1 minute apart. It was funny because I'd feel fine and tell him "let's not call her yet, I'm not sure it's real" and then a contraction would come and it would feel like much more pressure with each one and I'd say "okay- let's call her, hurry" haha so I went back and forth for a good 10 minutes.
Finally we called Cyndi- my midwife- and told her they were a minute apart and she said "yeah- I'll see you in ten minutes"
7 cm dialated, breathing through contraction! Note- I was smiling for the camera and Brett told me to focus so it looked like I was in labor!! |
Anyways- we took about an hour to get to the Birthsweet- the birthing center- because I showered and took my sweet time. Also because D woke up and got pretty emotional :(
I was so sad but he quickly went back to sleep! We have the best neighbors!!! I'm so glad we're friends and D and Eli get along so well!
I was so sad but he quickly went back to sleep! We have the best neighbors!!! I'm so glad we're friends and D and Eli get along so well!
So we get to the Birthsweet around 5 and Cyndi starts prepping the IV for the group B strep. My contractions were now closer and getting more and more intense. In between contractions we were talking, laughing, and I kept saying how it didn't seem like the real thing. I kept waiting for more intensity, more pain, more something!
When Cyndi was all ready she told me she didn't think we'd have time to get the medicine to the baby since my contractions were so close.
"This baby is coming really soon"
But it didn't feel soon to me, it didn't even feel real to me! Either way Cyndi checked me for dialation and I told her to please not tell me if I wasn't past a 4 because that'd make me so sad! She checked me and I was already at a 7 and I had only been there an hour!!
Finally, the pool was ready -yeah, did I mention the tub wasn't even full when I got there? I was not gonna do this without the tub! I planned my whole pregnancy to be able to get in and relax. Water is a huge safety for me, so I knew I had to have it! Thank goodness it filled up in time!-
I got in the tub around 6 am and my contractions were getting more and more intense. I also started feeling super nauseous! It was the worst. Besides being nauseous, most of the time in the tub, I was talking in between contractions, laughing, Brett was making jokes- he even said "we could've brought Deacon, you're so calm"
It didn't feel real, I just kept telling them, "I don't feel like I'm having a baby, it doesn't feel real."
Most of my birthing time was spent like this. Contractions would come and I would lean over and Brett would help me breathe and relax. I'm still impressed with how well I handled it. I could feel them get more intense and the baby making her way down. It was more and more pressure and it would move lower and lower with each contraction.
I started getting more and more loud- we learned at the Hypnobabies class that it helps to do low moaning noises to relax everything. High pitch noises- tense everything up. Low moans- relax everything!
Anyways- I started getting more loud and panicky because they were getting hard. I asked Cyndi if she could feel her because it felt like she was right there, ready to come! Sure enough she was! I was at a 10 with no cervix- Cyndi told me to start pushing with my next contractions. I didn't feel pushy- but I did anyway with my next two contractions and nothing happened.
Anyways- I started getting more loud and panicky because they were getting hard. I asked Cyndi if she could feel her because it felt like she was right there, ready to come! Sure enough she was! I was at a 10 with no cervix- Cyndi told me to start pushing with my next contractions. I didn't feel pushy- but I did anyway with my next two contractions and nothing happened.
Cyndi then had me flip over to break my water, so I flipped, and Brett held onto my arms. As soon as she broke my water everything got 10 times more real. It was time to have this baby and the pain had finally gotten here. Brett asked me if I wanted to flip over and all I could say was "please don't let go of me"
I kid you not when I say I wasn't feeling pain until then, it was mostly pressure, mostly intensity but not pain- not till now.
I could feel everything. It was the worst, hardest pain in the world. No one can prepare you for that. And with each contraction and each push it got worse. That's usually when people say you want to give up- and I did. I didn't think I could do it, I was scared to push. That ring of fire is real- it will knock your socks off.
I got a little frantic and told her I couldn't push or I would poop in the tub! Ha but Cyndi told me you're not pooping, it's your baby!
So I pushed with one contraction, started feeling like giving up, pushed again, started getting really loud and then my brain was done- it was like I couldn't do it any longer. Until Brett said "I can see her, she's right there babe" and I somehow mustered the strength, the courage, to give one last push and our perfect little baby was born!
Our little Callie was born!
Brett literally held me by my arms as I floated in the water and delivered our baby. It was so powerful to have done it together. He coached me and helped me the entire time. It was mostly us, my midwife and her assistant helped reassure me during the process but mostly it was just us. I loved that, it was exactly what I always dreamed birth would be like.
Brett literally held me by my arms as I floated in the water and delivered our baby. It was so powerful to have done it together. He coached me and helped me the entire time. It was mostly us, my midwife and her assistant helped reassure me during the process but mostly it was just us. I loved that, it was exactly what I always dreamed birth would be like.
I have never felt more adrenaline, more endorphins or more accomplished than at that moment. It was the most beautiful feeling- having this perfect little baby in my arms made it all worth it. We felt so close to heaven and we both felt so emotional. I still can't believe I did that. I still feel like it was a dream. This birth was even better than I had imagined it to be. It was so much more amazing than I ever thought it could be. It was so perfect.
After what seemed like the most perfect 5 minutes or so- we got out of the tub and laid in bed. We loved on Callie while Cyndi checked her vitals.
My body was still contracting and I was still burning down there because my placenta hadn't been delivered yet- so I handed Callie to Brett so I could be done with the pain. Once my placenta was delivered and I rinsed off, the pain was all gone! I felt nothing! I felt normal, I could walk, I showered. It was the best!
Then we snuggled Callie for a couple hours. It was pure heaven. My favorite moments. She nursed, and we just enjoyed quiet peaceful moments with her. No one around, just us three. Just us. It was perfect. ❤️
I delivered at 7:19am and we got to go home around 10 o clock to an eager big brother! It still feels like a dream, the best dream. I can't believe it was almost two weeks ago, it feels like just yesterday!
Callie Isabella Kendrick 6.10oz 19 inches long
Born at 7:19 am April 26th 2016
Born at 7:19 am April 26th 2016
Total birthing time- 4 hours