Two Month Check Up and Resolutions

Yesterday was Deacon's two month check up! Can you believe the sweetest little babe is two months already? I sure can't! There are days I just hold him and watch him sleep and beg time to slow down, because when I watch him sleep I realized how much he's changing and growing. His little hands have gotten bigger and his skinny thighs aren't so skinny anymore but oh so yummy, and how his face has filled out and his hair that fell out is now growing back. Oh why can't time slow down? I feel like if I blink he will be two years old! I never ever realized just how fast time flies... How grateful I am that I will be able to watch this sweet babe grow up and be his own person not just in this life but in the eternities!
His two month check up was great! He is absolutely perfect in every way. He's growing and gaining weight and even a little advanced because he's already flipping over! He's so sweet and he loves to smile all the time, it's the cutest thing!
Anyway, after all his measurements Dr. Horkley sat down to tell me all about his growth. He told me he gained weight great, he now weighs 12 pounds! Woo-hoo double his birth weight! And then told me that his growth went down a little bit. He grew but basically the chart says that he might end up being short, and as soon as I heard that I said oh no! I've always told myself that it's fine if girls are short but not guys! I always told Brett I want our boys to be as tall as he is not tiny like me... but then leaving the Doctors office, I had time to think.
I mean how ridiculous it is for me to be upset that my perfect little boy might be short? How ridiculous it is that I've always had this expectation for my unborn children? An expectation they have absolutely no control over... I'm actually embarrassed to admit I thought bad thoughts about the fact that he might be short.
Don't get me wrong, I have nothing wrong with short people.... of course not right? I'm one of those myself :) But here I was getting upset because I wanted something Deacon has no control of. And that's when I'm sure the Spirit taught me once again "that the worth of souls is great in the sight of God"
The Lord doesn't care if we're short or tall, rich or poor, fair skinned or tan, He loves us with a a love so unconditional simply because we are His children! And that is exactly what kind of parent He wants me to be! The only way to be a good parent (in my eyes) is if I'm the kind of parent Heavenly Father is to me. If I try every day to be more forgiving, more loving, more accepting, more Christlike. Isn't Heavenly Father's plan perfect? I mean He is the perfect example, and He sent us here to learn for ourselves, but He's paved the way and all we have to do is trust that He will help us get back to Him.
So here I am... completely overwhelmed with how much love He has for me and for Deacon and for every single person on this earth. And here I am... asking for His forgiveness as I try harder everyday to be more like him. So I have a new goal... a goal I'd like to work on for the rest of my life.. I will love Deacon and all my other children and everyone I meet.... without judgement on what they look like, act like... It's obviously a hard goal, that's why its one of the biggest commandments but it's my new goal! :) Wish me luck... and if I forget it while I'm with you... remind me!