8 months

Deacon Boy,
This has been such a fun month! You are such a big, strong boy!
You're doing just about everything and I'm so proud of you. You're crawling!! All this growing
up in one month has really been hard, fun, exciting, nerve wracking and the best month so far. I haven't slept most nights because you're getting a tooth,
I've calmed you down and wiped away many tears because you can pull yourself up on
everything and try to let go, you shut drawers on your tiny fingers and you think you can conquer the world.
I've chased you all around and held your hands to walk around.
I've carried you from here to there and from there to here because you always want to be with me. I've read story after story when you refuse to go to sleep before Daddy gets home.
I've sat by the tub every night and told you not to drain the tub countless times, and you know you're not supposed to do it.
I've spent many afternoons enjoying just you and me time, you love to give kisses and laugh and you're silliest when you wake up from your naps.
We've sang lots of songs, you love to clap your hands but when I start singing the clapping song, you won't clap for me.
You've discovered real food, you love rice, oatmeal, veggies and cheerios. It's been my favorite thing to feed you real foods.
It has been such a fun month. You are the best babe around. It's been hard and wonderful and I've loved every single part of it. Tonight as I look back on the month, I'm beating myself up for wanting you to grow up sometimes and for not making the most of this month. Why is it that time goes by so fast? It's only been 8 months and I tell your dad everyday that I miss my baby Deacon! You are growing too fast! Stop it :)
I just want to freeze time and be your mommy forever.
I have always thought that eternity would be boring. Not boring but in my mind, I always thought, won't we get bored and want things to speed up or end? And this week I've understood. I've caught a glimpse of what it could be like to live forever. For time to move slower (does it go slower?) I can't wait. Heavenly Father's plan is so perfect. I have moment after moment that helps me understand His plan better and everytime I am humbled. He truly knows what He is doing.
I am beyond blessed to be your Mamae, it's the best calling in the world. Thank you for being such a sweet boy and loving me. I thank Heavenly Father in all my prayers to have chosen me to your mother. My heart just bursts with joy to know you are all ours. Eu te amo.