Father's Day... it's funny because I haven't really celebrated this holiday and quite some time! So as this Father's Day approached I did lots of thinking and soul searching. In the end here's what I've came up with, I have been so blessed to have such different relationships with multiple men who have parented me. Each relationship is unique and close to my heart.
My dad- It's been years since I even thought of him as my Dad. For quite a while he wasn't even part of my life, and that space helped me sort out who he was, who he is and who I hope he can be someday. It's been a heart wrenching journey to get to the point that we are now. We're friends. He's my dad. I know he regrets a lot of things, I know he's still working on a lot of things but whether or not he has it all figured out or not, we're working on this entirely new relationship. It's hard. It's awkward. But I can finally look at him and talk to him and want nothing but the best for him. I can finally tell him about my life with Brett and hear how he's doing. He's so excited he's going to be a Grandpa! He knew it'd be a little boy and he's just so happy that Brett and I are doing so well. It's funny because there are things that Brett does that remind me so much of my dad and I believe that is one of the things that helped me heal and remember the Dad I had so much fun with and loved. As I think of my Dad now, I really just want him to make things right, get rebaptized and live a life he's proud of. I want him to be happy, truly happy. It's been a blessing for me to be able to start over with him and I'm so glad he's on his way to a better life. I'm so grateful for the little chats we have through Skype. I'm grateful for a husband who understands me and the situation and loves my dad and truly wants to be great friends with him.
David- My mother has been remarried for almost 2 years! Isn't that crazy?! David...David...David.. He is a funny guy! I've told my mom this before but he's one of the weirdest guys I've ever met, yet he loves my mom so much and they have such a loving and tender relationship! David has been such a blessing to our family. He is so energetic and crazy, he's always up for crazy things which always makes me laugh. I'm grateful for someone who loves my mother and lets her be young again and silly. I'm so grateful for someone who is there for my mother and my siblings living at home. It's been so great to have him there and for my family to be a family again. Reading scriptures and having family dinners together, going on trips and spending days as a family. It's been such a blessing to have him in our lives! He's taken us as we are, crazy, hormonal, loud and opinionated! He's a patient man, especially at the very beginning when we all needed someone very patient to deal with us. :)
Dad Kendrick- I've called my Father in law, Dad ever since Brett was on his mission. He is such a patient, loving man and I'm so proud to call him my Father in Law. He's such a hard worker and he's taught Brett so much. The biggest thing he's taught Brett is how to respect women and to treat your wife like a queen. It's always impressed me so much the way Corey treats his wife, he opens every door and holds her first in his life. It's beautiful and I've been so blessed to have married his son who is so much like him in so many ways! I know I can always count on Dad for anything, even if I'm stubborn, I know Dad would be there in a heartbeat if we needed him!
Blaine Worthen- I've been really blessed to call this man my Grandpa! He's been a wonderful father figure for me. He's taken me in and loved me like a father would. He's constantly trying to get together and be with Brett and I, and we love that. He's so wise. He's been everything I ever needed, a therapist, a shoulder to cry on, a boss, a friend and most importantly a father. He's taught me so many things and still to this day counsels Brett and I. His cute little smile and hugs have meant so much to me. I'm so grateful to have him in our lives!
President Wallis- There are no words to describe the man who has truly been there every step of the way from the time I met him. He is amazing. He is my other Grandpa here in the states, he's so loving and kind and I don't know where I'd be without his influence in my life. He knows almost everything there is to know about me and still loves me and cares so much for me. Brett and I love his spirit and his tender loving way. He's truly been the best Grandpa-Father figure for me! I'm so blessed to have him and his sweet wife in my life. They are truly Christ centered people, I couldn't ask for better examples of a celestial marriage!
I've been blessed with these men in my life. Heavenly Father has showed me His Hand in my life through these men and I can't thank Him enough for being there for me. I've grown close to my Father in Heaven through the years and although there were times I didn't have anyone I knew I always had a Father I could count on. Someone who loves me and will never let me down. Someone who can be there for me completely and someone who can help me pick myself up. It's amazing how blessed I've been with these great men in my life! I'm so blessed!
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